It's another long lonely night at home for me. Joseph is at school until after 9pm on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Today was a busy day working Pediatrics. Seems all the kids in the area are sick. On a typical day in Peds we see about 40-50 kids. Today we saw 94 and would have seen more. The receptionists called all afternoon asking if they could add more patients, but the doctor's had a meeting they had to attend this evening and froze their schedules. I just finished my 40min. workout routine and am trying to think of something for dinner. It's hard to motivated to cook something healthy to eat and not just snack when I am home alone... Below is my 21 week picture. I feel huge and most of my clothes are getting uncomfortable, even though everyone keeps saying I'm barely showing. It will be interesting to see how much this belly grows over the next 19 weeks! 
Okay, I am going to be a little different. In honor of being 21 weeks pregnant I have been thinking back over the past few weeks and jotted down 21 things about this pregnancy that I wanted to remember. 1) We got a plus sign on the home pregnancy test on the morning of Oct. 19th but, then I looked at the box and the test was over a year past its expiration! So I didn’t know if I should believe it until we bought another test that evening. 2) I waited almost 3 weeks to tell my family. Once morning sickness kicked in I figured if I didn’t tell they would ask. It was almost Dad’s birthday so we bought him a mug that said “Great Dad’s Get Promoted to Grandpa.” About 5 min. after he opened it and thanked me, Kristin finally asked if that was supposed to mean something! 3) I guess compared to many I was really lucky. Only threw up about four times, but had nausea all day so many days I lost about 14lbs the first trimester. 4) This pregnancy has proved that I am a worry wart. I thought I would stop worrying at 12 weeks then 18 weeks – now I am hoping I will stop at 20 weeks. My family thinks it has proved that I am just plain crazy. 5) I felt really awkward announcing that I was pregnant. I was more than happy to let word spread through the grapevine. I still have people at work and church coming up to me saying, “I just heard a rumor…” 6) Catching a side view of my abdomen in the mirror is starting to scare me a little less. I think I am even beginning to forget what a flat stomach looked like. 7) Scrubs are really good at concealing a pregnant belly. Everyone at work is convinced that I am not showing at all. 8) I first felt the baby move at 16 weeks, but didn’t even tell Joseph for almost two weeks b/c I wasn’t sure that was what I was feeling. 9) Joseph felt the baby kick for the first time at 19 weeks. 10) Some days I feel huge and worry about stretch marks. Other days, when everyone says I am not even showing, I start to worry our baby will be a dwarf! 11) I really hate round ligament pain. Getting up off the couch or rolling over in bed frequently makes it feel like someone is stabbing me. 12) A few times when I have gotten a big kick out of the blue it scared me enough to make me jump – then I remember there is a little person inside and it’s okay! 13) At least 10 people I know have birthdays within a week of my due date. 14) Two weeks ago I tried on maternity clothes for the first time. Why do maternity jeans have to be so expensive? Some of my regular jeans still fit and for the rest I am using the rubber band through the buttonhole trick for now. 15) Last March I decided to go one year without buying any new clothes. Guess I didn’t factor pregnancy into that equation. But I only had 6 weeks to go when I caved and bought a maternity shirt for $1.99. 16) We bought a crib and dresser at a yard sale last year before I was pregnant. I felt a little weird about it, but it was a great deal. Turns out the crib had been recalled. So, we got to pick out a brand new crib for no extra cost. 17) We are still trying to decide what room to use for the nursery. 18) I used to not understand when Joseph wanted to take a nap on the weekend. Now I take one almost everyday. Thankfully now they are only about 20 min. instead of from the moment I walked in from work until I went to bed. The second trimester is much better! 19) For almost 6 weeks I didn’t grocery shop or cook any meals. Especially after trying to grocery shop one day while feeling so queasy I spent the whole time scoping out the quickest route to the restroom. Then I realized once I headed to the check out that I had forgotten my purse! 20) My co-workers are so cautious about what I do at work. They rarely let me help hold down kicking children, won’t let me give live virus vaccines, lecture me when I squat down to put dressings on feet, and stop me when I try to move or lift anything. It makes me feel perfectly helpless some days, but it is nice to know they care. 21) I had my first dream about the gender of our baby the night before the big ultrasound. I dreamed it was a girl. The next day, at 19 weeks and 3 days along we found out we are having a little boy! Guess my dreams don't mean much! | 
